...is for Normal.
Whatever that is.
In any case, it's what I long to be, even if I don't really know what it is, what it means.
Maybe it's a case of wanting something solely because you can't have it, maybe I'd hate being normal (assuming anyone's normal, assuming people who are normal realise that's what they are), maybe such a thing simply doesn't exist.
Whatever. It's still something I aspire to, yearn for, dream about.
And for Lori in Ohio, I want to thank you for your kind and wonderful words the other day, they mean more to me than you can imagine.